{"id":717,"date":"2006-09-19T05:36:51","date_gmt":"2006-09-19T05:36:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/glaringnotebook.com\/?p=717"},"modified":"2006-09-19T05:36:51","modified_gmt":"2006-09-19T05:36:51","slug":"ambitschin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glaringnotebook.com\/?p=717","title":{"rendered":"Ambitschin&#8217;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Recent events have led to a wake up call. A good blow to the head.<\/p>\n<p>If you asked me 5 days ago where I saw myself in 5 years from now, I wouldn&#8217;t know. Heck, I <b>hated<\/b> those ambition-type questions to the core, me being a laidback hippie, a voluntary honorary red ant. Is <b>everybody<\/b> supposed to be a managing director at the age of 25? I like hands-on programming. I don&#8217;t want to be giving orders to subordinates, who I feel would not do the job the way I want it. John Carmack has always been a hardcore programmer for id Software, despite co-owning it! His dedication and passion is what kept their game engines top-notch.<\/p>\n<p><b>Move Out<\/b><br \/>\nI plan to move out of my parents&#8217; house sometime.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve never given it thought. I&#8217;ve never thought that I should, or that I would. Until recently.<\/p>\n<p>Just like in <a href=\"http:\/\/www.glaringnotebook.com\/?p=644\">Failure To Launch<\/a>, there really isn&#8217;t a reason to move out. I do not hate my parents. I&#8217;m not inseparable from them either. I come home just to sleep, use the computer, fix the computer, provide free ASTRO for my family (it&#8217;s a company perk) and eat dinner. Sometimes. My <a href=\"http:\/\/www.glaringnotebook.com\/?p=622\">Nokia N70<\/a>&#8216;s alarm clock is more annoying than previous Nokias I&#8217;ve had, but I am still coming back after gigs at 2am and sleeping right through the alarm. That&#8217;s where family comes in. The human alarm clock.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t need to move out. I don&#8217;t get cigarette withdrawal symptoms at home. I don&#8217;t get the munchies. (I don&#8217;t smoke or do weed.) I don&#8217;t have a curfew. They&#8217;ve never said that I can&#8217;t bring girls into my room but I don&#8217;t, because I am <i>shyyy<\/i>. \ud83d\ude2e<\/p>\n<p>I was never forced to live independently before, since I went to college at Informatics KL, which was very near the Ampang Park LRT station. Perhaps, if I was studying Game Design in Multimedia University, Melacca (and then Cyberjaya) I&#8217;d be forced to experience it. Perhaps, if I came to the Klang Valley to study, from say Ipoh, I&#8217;d be forced to.<\/p>\n<p>At this point, being forced to go for National Service would be good for me. It teaches kids to be independent! It really isn&#8217;t about learning how to fire guns. It&#8217;s about getting some muscles, a bit of a tan, and watching your back as you pick up the soap.<\/p>\n<p><b>Where To?<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Preferably somewhere in the middle of everything, like KL Sentral or Bangsar. Of course, both areas are prime property, so Seputeh, Brickfields and Kerinchi are cheaper options.<\/p>\n<p>Oh, and it would have to be next to an LRT station, so even schoolgirls can come to my place&#8230; and play with my Transformers and watch me play guitar. I&#8217;m a private person and only do private performances, unless under inhibition-inhibiting substances.<\/p>\n<p><b>Getting Around<\/b><\/p>\n<p>I love the LRT and fully support it. It&#8217;s too bad people aren&#8217;t patient enough to live with it. A banged up car, and the cost of banging it back into shape, could be half a Kancil. Plus I could park anywhere without worrying. I wouldn&#8217;t put my junk in the backseat.<\/p>\n<p>But really, do I need a car?<\/p>\n<p>NO.<\/p>\n<p>I am one of those people who can live with long bus rides. I&#8217;ve got my phone and loads of Symbian games. I&#8217;ve got my pen and paper and a Rubik&#8217;s Cube. I&#8217;ve always got something to mentally occupy myself with.<\/p>\n<p>I just <b>want<\/b> a car so I can pick up chicks.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;and maybe come home late after clubbing in some place where taxis exorbitantly charge RM50 just to exit Subang\/Sunway. But then, I shouldn&#8217;t be drinking and driving, so&#8230; do you see the irony here? <\/p>\n<p>If I got married, I&#8217;d rather she drive while I take the bus. I might have a car, but it&#8217;s a matter of having a choice. (Like <a href=\"http:\/\/klcommuter.blogspot.com\/\" target=\"_BLANK\">KL Commuter<\/a>, a blog about public transportation in Malaysia, says.)<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d hate myself the moment I find myself unable to ride the LRT.<\/p>\n<p><b>Saving Up?<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Since I&#8217;m so good at <b>starting things and not finishing them<\/b>, I shall exercise the policy of buying a functional item and then <b>not<\/b> upgrading it. For example, I was getting restless with my (sister&#8217;s) acoustic guitar, and wanted a lickable butterscotch Ibanez GSA 370-QM AM electric guitar badly. Just as I had the money for it, I <a href=\"http:\/\/www.glaringnotebook.com\/?p=160\">failed for the first time in college<\/a>. Plans were delayed, and the itch subsided.<\/p>\n<p>Similiarly, I have a <a href=\"http:\/\/www.glaringnotebook.com\/?p=462\">Canon Powershot A520<\/a>, a functional geek camera with manual features. The itch is currently high to get a digital SLR&#8230; but I&#8217;ve a feeling that that too, will pass. I already have one item of camera. That cash could go to the car.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;<i>Dad, I&#8217;m gonna move out. Can you buy me a Kancil?<\/i>&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s not the point. Complete, true independence is the point.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;of course, provisions will be made for a gradual transition, but I will do as much as I am able to.<\/p>\n<p><b>Food<\/b><\/p>\n<p>I <s>can&#8217;t<\/s> <s>don&#8217;t know how to<\/s> haven&#8217;t tried to cook, but I have a whole lot of hair that I can afford to lose, by eating a carton of instant cup noodle. I&#8217;m used to my family&#8217;s kitchen mishaps, so if my cooking sucked I&#8217;d be pretty used to it. \ud83d\ude00<\/p>\n<p><b>Drinks<\/b><\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m still at the age where I enjoy just having a sober conversation at a mamak compared to having a sober conversation in the smoky nethers of a pub or bistro. Alcohol is great, yeah, but just like food it goes in and goes out. Starbucks, too. Yeah, so I&#8217;m not big on coffee or alcohol. You could say that I haven&#8217;t cultivated such cultured tastes&#8230; but I should be thankful I don&#8217;t have such costly preferences. Ramli Burger anytime!<\/p>\n<p><b>Changes, Plans<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Self-preparation is the plan.<\/p>\n<p>But first, I need to start practising as if I was independent at home, while I save up.<\/p>\n<p><b>Cut Off Alarming Dependence<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Tune myself to the alarm. It will be unavoidable that I <b>will<\/b> lack sleep. If I sleep at 2am, I&#8217;d only wake up automatically 8 hours later. However, there have been occurences where I <b>remind myself<\/b> before I sleep that the batteries are charging downstairs&#8230; and when I wake up, I actually remember to look for them. I set three alarms 15 minutes apart, and the jackpot&#8217;s on the third.<\/p>\n<p>When I move, my room will be a mark of minimalism. Wardrobe in a box, the rest of my junk in a box, sofabed, computer table, office chair, fan (air-cond gives me the sniffles) and a toilet.<\/p>\n<p>I felt that this blog entry would&#8217;ve been better written last night, since all the points were running in my head all day, but I decided to get off my lazy ass and clean up my room. How would I live the minimalist concept if I had heaps of boxes and papers around?<\/p>\n<p>Thanks Ms. B. and best friend for helping me come to this realization. I&#8217;ve been such a dependent person for so long. (And shameless and stupid too.) I just don&#8217;t know where to hide my face in shame.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Recent events have led to a wake up call. A good blow to the head. If you asked me 5 days ago where I saw myself in 5 years from now, I wouldn&#8217;t know. Heck, I hated those ambition-type questions to the core, me being a laidback hippie, a voluntary honorary red ant. 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